World Cup Soccer

Watching USA against Ghana, unfortunately Ghana has scored first. I will continue to root for USA, as I know Jim is doing also.

Happy Fathers Day

Happy Fathers Day to my dad, over the years and now, when fix-ups need to be done around the house. (things I can't handle) Dad knows I love him very much.

Happy Fathers Day to Jim's dad, for also being such a great father to Jim, Karen and Doug. I wish I would have known somewhat sooner.

Happy Fathers Day to Jim, for being such a great role model for Alyssa. We love you and miss you. I guarantee that every day that goes by, you are constantly thought of.

I am not much of a writer, but I will try and improve upon that as time goes on.

Good Morning

I woke up quite early this morning, somewhat earlier than I would have liked. I am really trying to get things back in order. I bought paint at Home Depot plus brushes etc., Jim and I had always wanted to finish the kitchen and the backroom and then begin painting the bedroom.

I still am unable to sleep in our bed, it is to difficult for the moment to not feel that person next to you. I cannot believe it will be approaching what would have been our 5th anniversary. I am especially glad now that I had kept on the letters he had sent me in previous times, they are very precious to me. It helps me go back in time when things were wonderful.

In A Relationship

When Jim and I had begun to have our relationship together, it had taken some time in order to get to know each other in a domestic way. Eventually, we grew (I think) to have mutual respect and common ground together. In my opinion, when you meet your soul-mate you know it almost immediately, somehow I guess he knew it sooner than I did. It took him awhile to pursue what interest he must have found in me.

I look back upon things and I would not have traded the time I had with him for a split second. I treasure the relationship we had together as a couple.

In 2006, even after after the removal of his kidney. We had spoken of having a child together, but in 2007 as things had become difficult again, that decision had been made for us. We even had a name picked out (Patrick James), however, things happen for a reason.

Jim and I wanted to continue our lives together as a couple should. We were committed to each other and that is what we felt between us.

I Love You Jim and Thank You for being such a BIG PART of my life, Alyssa's life and of course the rest of the family included. You have made such an impact.

In Your Memory.....

I know that you were with us last evening at your Alma Mater for the memorial scholarship award that Doug presented in your name. I thought it was a wonderful idea and you are so very deserving of it. I love you honey, myself, Alyssa, your mom and Doug and Kristy were present.

Doug definitely did you justice in the presentation and... it was a wonderful thing to be able to attend.

Will You Remember....

Will you remember me in heaven,
as I remember you.
Will the love still be there,
as we knew here on earth.

They say in time you heal,
from some of the hurt and pain.

You have been my soul-mate,
and you still are,
even though you do that from afar.

Please know in heaven above,
you still share a very special love.

Someone whom I will love forever.

Interesting Dentist Appt.

From one of the epileptic spills that I took when I was sixteen, a very severe one. There is no way to forget it either. I had braces at the time, thank goodness it helped to save my front teeth. Of course at the time it also included a root canal and I also knew that I may have to have another root canal one day, the time has come again.

I just recall how much pain I was in. So it goes.

On a lighter note, on Tuesday this week I had lunch with my mom and Jim's mom, which is a good thing and we had a very nice time. This is very important in the healing process that we get together when we can and just chat.

I know how I feel about Jim's passing and I don't entirely know how Jim's mom Alice feels, because it is somewhat different as far as wife and mother. But we talk on the phone frequently and I will always consider Alice as mom #2. There is not a day that goes by that I don't feel Jim's presence and I hope and pray that he will continue to be with me for eternity.