E-Mail April 10, 2002 from Jim

Well I'm not the most approachable guy on the planet, lol I can be a handful. And well, any kind of friendships and work can be a little awkward sometimes. But it's also the place we spend an awful lot of our lives.

Even though I lived in downtown York for a few years, that was awhile ago, and I really know this side of the river; and I really don't know that side.

I'm never short on ideas. We could meet up after work and head for Bube's in Mt. Joy for a drink...listen to some music...pick each other's brains...soak in the atmosphere...and make fun of the bartenders. I could show you the back of an old hardware store I live in(it's actually pretty nice I'm just used to renovated warehouses with lofts, wood everywhere and lots of room for cartwheels). And I could challenge you to a game of nerf ball. We could bare our souls through finger painting.

Then there's breakfast at the Hershey Hotel (I got myself thinking today). And we can digest all those chocolate pastries on the drive down to Lewes...dip my big toe in the salt water. We can walk in the sand until our shins ask us to please stop for awhile. As long as we get back north to Rehoboth for maybe some soul seafood right before the sun goes down over the sound. There's a great light show at the beach every night...so much uninterrupted skyline.

But morning calls and I'm a shot down the Eastern Coast away from my uncle. I'll steal his Boston Whaler (if he hasn't sold it yet) and see if I can find that abandoned coast guard station on one of the small barrier islands that dots the coast. This time I have to check the tide charts so I don't have to swim back to the boat.

Mmmmmm...and there's a great restaurant real close to that boat launch. I saw Black Elvis there once. I kid you not. (shaking head)

Or we can just hit Bube's and take it from there. (smile)

Good Morning

Mom and I going to the grocery store today to grab a few things, also Freckles needs more cat food (can't be without that) Alyssa unfortunately has some type of viral infection and has been dealing with a lack of voice. I hope she feels better, because of course I feel badly for her.

Right now, taking one day at a time as usual and missing Jim like crazy. When you lose your other half, the person that you were meant to be with for eternity, I cannot even begin to explain that is felt. He has to know how much I love him and how much he is missed by all.

Take Care All of You

Just Want To Say.......

Jim, I finally went for a bike ride, it wasn't the same, but I know you were there with me. Thank you for helping to try and give me the strength to get through difficult days. There have been so many wonderful times while we've been together and we still are and always will be.

I Love You and the Special Man that you are.

Trying to Accomplish Things

As I continue to try and do things, looking into driving instruction to get my license in the future, checking back into getting my accounting degree, things such as that. I know I can't push myself too much for obvious reasons. (too much of a push can cause more strain at times)

I have been doing yard work, trying to go for walks when the weather co-operates. The walks are nice, but yet I had my walking partner, however I know he was and is with me.

I want to thank everybody once again for the kindness and support they have shown me and I will always carry it in my heart.

Happy Easter

Today will be a difficult day, Jim and I had normally taken on Easter Dinner ourselves, but this year would be too emotional for me to handle that. Thank goodness on Jim's side of the family last weekend, Karen and Jamie handled it and today, my sister Debbie and her husband Jay are handling it.

Jim had always been so set on Groff's Ham in E-town, which to everyone as understood. We would work together to get things accomplished and everyone else would normally bring a side or dessert. I miss those kinds of things so very much, but I hope that next year I will be able to handle it once again.

I love you Jim and I know that you will be with us today and that you will be happy with the turn-out. It won't be the same without you honey.

Honey, I Love You!!!

Sweetheart, I miss you and I love you so much and of course the rest of the family feels exactly the same. I know that you looking out for us and watching over us, but I know that you are in a much better place and that part I am thankful for.

Your memory will live on in the hearts and minds of so many people. Your perspective and the fight you put forth is an inspiration to so many. I will continue always to live my life in rememberance of you and what you have meant to me.